I guess it's not that bad in theory. forgive me for this whining b!tch of a post.
But right now I'm irritated as hell, I went to county for a semester, i had a 3.2 and got into the school i've been trying to go to for a year, only to find that i don't really like it very much, and am pretty sure im going back to county college for a summer semester.
i just kindof freaked out and gave up at the very end of the semester.
i know it could be a lot worse, and i just finished freshman year and it's not like people dont change their minds/majors a million times, but first three years of highschool i didnt do well, so i spent all of senior year and then a semester at cc just to bring my gpa up enough to get in to my current school. it was the only school i applied to, so i just focused everything i had on that, and now i feel so deflated. i go to art school now, and for the longest time art was my everything. since i was a little kid really. but i feel my interests shifting, and i feel confused and retarded.
and i drank four cans of soda while going over school catalogs tonight because i've become absolutely obsessed with this sh!t, so my mind is just going a mile a minute and making it a lot worse.
i guess i know what i have to do, and what mistakes i've made so far..
but it makes me feel better to complain a little bit, and i dont want to get on my families/friends/fiestys(boyfriends) nerves, because once i get started i could go on about this for DAYS.